/julien
Julien Chua Xin Li
December 29 1991
TK 3F'06/ 4F'07
Singapore

/give

to get EVEN more sleep
learn to play the guitar
a nice acoustic guitar
new phone:D
better earphones
baggggsssss!

/them

ali
chee yang
da jie
darence & gary
eli
fang lynn
fatman
hilma
heather
jaclyn
jannah
joan
jocelyn
julia
kheng ho
kwara
kiara
kenneth
lin
marianne
nina
pau
sis
shahidah
shaun
sharon jie
stephanie
syafiqah
vera
zu Kai
3 jie

/nightmares

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January 2005
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October 2005
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January 2006
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November 2006
January 2008

/chit-chat



nosey-parkers.

Friday, May 28, 2004

crap!i got my report book back..i passed ecerything..and i got 25/42 for my class position.and 166/356 for level position..
not say very good larx..too many smart ppl in my class liaox.
im one of those stupid one..
crappie.

oh wellx.. mrs chan-ho was saying bout my uniform to my dad..and he was like okok.. so crazy..

i sit there like so paiseh.. they both talk and talk and talk..
and everything they talk bout is my uniform.. i cant stand it..
shes always like that.. oh well.. all i noe is that i did not so gd in this exam..

better luck for me in tht next one..


-end-of-story-



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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

crap!!!today was weiRd!the first half of the day was like in class.. lazin around..a little boring.onli 3/4 of the class was there..the others were downstairs preparing for the exhibition..which was a real waste of time.we onli got to see it during our recess..then after that..no more.stupid..nobody want to see also..and my class one was real plain.. onli the stuff that we wrote on the paper and on the whiteboard..and of cos.. our scribbling on the board.

then after recess..we went to the hall for a NE day quiz..the thing was so long.. i was so tired..but in the end.. of cos my class won!actually quite expected!hehe!!navin,amos and yong yi represented our class..we won 1E by two marks!!!!! great izzen it..hehe..

when we got back to class..we had to do a lantern for a competition..and the theme was:garden of peace..
well... thank goodness paula came back to sch today after being sick for two days.. she designed the lantern.. and during recess we bought everything..that we needed..

well we used stylafoam as the base..then about 6 ppl were drawing the flowers and leaves and cutting and colouring them..
and then the others were doing the base and decorating them with the green wires thingy and putting the paper on it..

but before we could even finish the whole lantern..fang lynn jus happened to lost her fone..crap!so most of us helped to find her fone..but the question was.. how did she lost her fone???she said that she put it in her bag.. and the next thing she knew was that it was gone..weiRd..
so crappie.. and a normal person would suspect onli one person:: GARY.
he was known for being notorious..and we all thought that he was the one that took her fone..
we evrn did a bag search and body search on him by oursekves.. but of cos wif the help frm some seniors..

in the end...the teacher was informed and then the whole class had to have a bag search.. crappie!
well they made all of us stand up for about one hour..crazy!
but they still could not find the fone.. useless.. wasted our time! i was so tired!almost couldnot walk..after all that seacrching and scolding..we missed the assembly and didnt get to noe who won the lantern com.. crap! so shitty..haix.. wadever.

until now.. everyone still suspects him..he is an saa.. hate him!

-end-of-sory-

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Monday, May 24, 2004

SUNDAY:

YAWN!!!im so tired...crappie..woke up early to send my uncle to the airport..now im outta energy..wanna sleep but cannot..still gonna look at the new hse..crap!
its so hot lor..still haf to go..shitty..
HATE IT!!



MONDAY!

well today was pretty ok..i guess..hehe!
well..today mr.ghazali and mdm ng ah noi never come..am i happie or wat!
well..for ah noi's period..i think..it was this teacher we all called sir came and relief us..well..he was a little crazy.
the first thing he nade us all do was..............GUESS................CONTINUE GUESSING.......................................

-------TO-STAND-ON-THE-CHAIR-------

i tell u..he's crazy..he later made the guys sit on the floor...and of cos the gurls sat on the chair..=)
well then later he let them off..but he said that if any one made noise then sit on the floor..siao wan..
oh! and gary shaved his hair..damm! he looks like a monk!
so of cos the teacher wld pick on him!
and when u see or noe gary.. u'll noe wat he wld do..
he jus acted along...
making everybody lauff..
including me!

well he let us sleep if we wanted to..
i tried to but cannot.. shit!

then later during mr.ghazali's period..mr yusri came..well he was a history teacher and soo.. he let us watch a documantary about alexander the great!BORING!

well i could almost sleep..

then at the other english period..mrs chan-ho came in...
the first person she called out was cheryl..then later when cheryl came back in..she called jillene,julia and me out!
then she checked our uniform..
as usual..so fustrating..

then she asked julia..

CHAN-HO: what is that on ur hand??[julia had the words"darence was here" on her hand..darence wrote it.]

JULIA:[julia read the words out.. chan-ho was toooo dumb to read.]darence wrote it.

CHAN-HO: why u let him write it on ur hand..u never clean off that means u like it issit??

JULIA:i noe it would come off sooner or later..so i didn't bother.

CHAN-HO: all her nagginig...really cannot stand it!

CHAN-HO: u all the three "js" very good fren rite..julien jillene and julia.huh??

US:[mumbling to ourselves]

CHAN-HO: so.. got any problems??any other problems????

ME: got no problem.. all ok wat.

JILL: all ok.

CHAN-HO:really?? dony lie to me.. i'll noe it sooner or later.really got nothin..then the two of u can go in..[me and jill]

i oso dono wat she doing lor..a bit scary.

well.. sianx..

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Saturday, May 22, 2004

YAWNX!!!!!am i tired or wad... today went fer band..now damm tired.. still at me grandmom house..later than go home..*yawnx!!!!!!!!haix..today.. did some learning of the horn..onli two notes.. hehe..=)

wellx.. we practice our marchindg skills wif the flag pole that we used last time..hehe..so embarassing..feel like some idiots walking wif a bamboo stick and walking wif a fren next to u holding it too...
real craziness!

i really carnt wait to go back to sch!!! noe the holidays are coming soon!!dont want it to come so early cos alm,ost the whole month is like in sch fer band!!! AAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

so hate it.. its my holiday..so sad..haix.now i carnt even go fer my holiday..damm!!!! hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it it it it it it it.....sickening...

i one day already tired until like siao..imagine the rest of the month going back there and i could die!!!! wahahahahahahahahahaha...im gonna die!!!! cheer fer me!

hip hip hooray!hip hip hooray!hip hip hooray!

ok.. im going insane even before the camp starts.. shit.. im gonna die soon.. i can feel it..lalalalalalalalalalalala...

im so damm sian wif my life!! I CANNOT STAND IT ANYMORE!
IM SO FUSTRATED!HELPPPPP!!!

well..today was really tiring..hate it!

-end-of-story-

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Friday, May 21, 2004

oh well.. not feelin so well today..havin a terrible tummy ach..damm!! hate it.
well..went to TM wif evonne,heather,fang lynn,alicia..for fun.. jus walk and talk then eat lunch..well.we took another neoprint..it was terrible!we didn't even noe when the thingy was gonna take the pic!so everything was a total mess..we did many wrong things.. crappie..but it was fun..well i left early..gotta ged home b4 me mom geds home!! well the bus trip frm there to me hse was like 1hr plus..and as usual..i slept!*yawnx* still feelin tired!if i had stayed wif them..i'll most probably still be there!! those peeps shop a lot!

well..im going out for dinner wif my family..seafood..can die ar like that!going soon..gotta go now..

-end-of-story-

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Wednesday, May 19, 2004

[listening to for fruits basket..a really nice song frm the show fruits basket.]

MONDAY:

wellx.. i went to TM wif jill and serene..jill wanted to buy a wallet..so we go wif her lorx.well ate McDonalds..same thing again..the McChicken meal.so sian ar like that.
well we went to motik to buy her wallet and i bought some
stuff too..then we went to mini toons..didn't buy anything..
jus looking. well onli the three of us so of cos will get quite boring..so we decided to head home..wellx..then umm..something happened..this stupid huy jus had to come and stop us..[those kinda ppl that sell the things fer charity that one..]serene tried running away..but that guy stopped her..weiRd guy..that stupid anderson thing.. wad discount..waste my $5..

well before we went to TM.. i told jill that we sure will meet another guy..[last time we came oso like that.. and i paid for the thing..]and it really happened! damm.bad mouth!

well so i went home..

-end of story-


TUESDAY:

well..i finally went fer band!actually didn't wanna go but cos jill oso got PT so nobody accompany me..i had no choice but to go for band!not too bad larx actually..we stayed in the music rm for almost the whole time..learning music theory..then we marched for abt 1 hr onli..
well not too bad..

i got home really tired..could jus drop and sleep..hehe.and my leg was aching..

-end of story-

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Sunday, May 16, 2004

okies..time to write again..accidentally erased the one i was writin..so siao..dun even noe wad happened..
wellx..friday was kinda boring. me mum picked me up sch..first time..that means that i could not anywhere wif me frens..i went to her office.ate lunch..then i used the com fer bout 1 and a half hrs..i was really bored..dono wat to do.. sit there like a idiot. later went to my cuzzies hse..got nothin to do there sp we watched finding nemo..it was boring cos we watched it before..so i was almost sleepin..

then i ate my dinner there then we all went to the playground..and then saw my senior..band senior..was sittin the swing..boring..then my mom came and so we sat in the car and i went home..

THURSDAY:

well this was the unlucky day..got a few of my papers back..it was all like s.h.i.t. the marks was all like 50++ and so far the highest that i had is onli a miserable 64..fer science..thATS WAT I GED FER DOING IT IN 45MINS WHEN I HAD 2HRS..stupid me..i am a true idiot..well after sch..i was suppose to go fer think tank but i really didn't wan to go..and everyone else that went all said that it was super boring..even all the goodies..haix.. so of cos i would not go..and thATS the starting of all the trouble..
so i didn't go and i went wif jill to the siglap mcdonald's..and we, as usual.. were crappin. and jill lauff so hard that she even banged her head onto the wall beside us..weiRd. but thATS her..so its normal.. hehe.

then after that i went to her hse..and we watched spongebob..funny sia..and then we watched the paris hilton the simple life... it was horrid i say!! those two ppl were like AIYO!! crazy peeps..
then i played wif her hamster..so CUTE!
so unlike her..--true!!

well it started to ged boring cos onli the two of us were there..so i decided to do a great thing..GO HOME!
well she walked me to the bustop..and guess wat?? i jus missed the damm bus! shit! so i waited there fer very very very long..and then i started to look around.. and the next thing i noe.. i jus missed another 31 bus!! shit that bus! so i waited and waited again..and then finally the bus came!! hahahahaha!! i was like so happie!!

well it was a real long way home frm there.. but i was real glad that i got home..hehe!

GD LUCK TO THOSE THAT ARE GETTIN THEIR RESULTS BACK!!

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Saturday, May 15, 2004

bloody shit!! i asccidentally deleted the post i was writin!!!now i gotta do it all over again!!!damm it!

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

well..went ta janice's hse..was waiting fer julia fer one whole bloody hour..she was sooooooo late..damm it.. butt was numb frm all the siting while waiting fer her to come.. was playing wif evonne's hp..quite nice.. but mine's better! hehe!

well when we were in her hse..i realised that her hse was rather small compared to mine.. but it had a real wonderful view of east coast! and windy! well we did our project fer 30 mins and then we went off playing! woohoo!! well so we went to the playground first..then to another.. then to another..and her condo was like..!! WOW!! there was even a supermarket there!! so pro! and the cafe there sells nice drinks!! i like it..

well we played catchin fer a while then after that we were all too tired except fer janice! she was still reccomanding more games that needed running to us..but of cos.. we didn't play..all so tired..hehe!

but overall was rather boring.. nothin to do..*dots..

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TODAY!!

well..im now at home waiting fer 12.00pm to come..im going to janice's hse to do the music project..damm sianx..and not a lot of ppl are online..so.. i'll jus haf to blog!HEHE!

man! i got nothin to write..*dotz..so sorry if u'll get bored reading this..let me tell you some jokes..

a long long time ago..there was this 10 000 monks..they wanted very much to build a temple to worship their god..so they started building..10 years passed..and they built 3/4 of the temple..then this horrible green tank jus had to come and bomb the temple up..and so there was onli 5000 monks left.. but they were still very determined to build the temple and so 20 years passed and they built 1/2 of the temple.. but the green tank came and bombed the temple up..and so there were onli 2500 monks left..but they still wanted to build the temple.so 30 years passed and thay build 1/3 of the temple.. but the green tank came and bombed the temple up.. leaving onli 1000 monks..but they were still determined to build the temple so.. 40 yars passed.. and 1/2 of the temple was done..but the green tank came and bombed the temple up.. and so onli 200 monks were left..but they still continued to build a new temple..and so..50 years passed..and 3/4 of the temple was built..but the green tank came and bomed the temple up and killed all the monks..then this red tank came and bombed the green tank..

WHAT IS THE MORAL OF THE STORY??

tag ur answers on the tagboard..and u'll see if u'll get it rite..hehe!

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TUESDAY:

well yesterday was finally the last day of our exam time!home econss.. can die.was full of crap..didn't noe how to do anything at all..crap larx.well we went ta sch fer like 1 hr onli..so we were released at like 8.50..went ta day and night wif shaun,leon.jill.cliff.evonne,aiyan.serene and fang lynn.. waiting fer the cinema to open.. they said that it wld open at 11++ like that..well.. so we were on the bus at like 10 like that.. going to TM.. well and then when we were there.. we found out that the first movie started at 10..we should have been there earlier..

so we bought the 12.50 tix..and at that time it was like 11.. so we had 1hr and 50mins left to roam around b4 the move starts..well.. we were thinkin of where to go fer lunch..first it was pastamania..but it was upstairs and we didn't wan the guys to ged angry at us cos they jus got down.. frm upstairs..so we went downwards..to mos burger..

the guys went their own way till the movie starts..well after the food..we went ta take a pic..as in those neoprint kind..but bigger..nice! and the guys were like up at the other level lookin at us..they were bored..i think..well at least they looked bored..so we quickly took the pic and went up...at that time it was like 12.45.. so we still had time to choose where we wanted to sit..fer the gurls onli lar..they made a draw.. frm oldest to the youngest..well they all knew that i was the YOUNGEST!!

no big deal actually..well i got the seat near the end.. second to the end.. so we all made a switch.. and i ended up gettin the tix that sat next to shaun..oh well anything..i suppose..jill was next to me.. thats one point..hehe..she keep tellin me that the gurl was very chio..okok.. i ged it..u are NOT as CHIO as she is.. yaya wadever..hehe.oh we watched van helsing..damm nice show.. go catch it if u can! nice story line.. tot that the gurl and van helsing would end up together..but in the end she died..a pity..so sad.. but not as sad as the other shows i watched b4.. i cried when i watched brothe bear.. can u believe that!!really sad ya noe..*sobs..well the guys were like really bored wif us..they seemed angry actually..i not sure..maybe its me..oh well..

GD LUCK TA THOSE WHO ARE HAVING THEIR EXAMs!! HEHE

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Monday, May 10, 2004

yyyyyyyyyyyyyoooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!exams are finally gonna be so damm over.. am i happie or AM i happie! both of cos!carnt wait fer tomorrow to come..watchin a movie wif frens..van heilsing..hope it rocks!! cos im gonna watch it..yeah~

well todae was like..whew! im glad i came out of that sch..geog was...[shitty/suX/hell/fcuk/make me wanna puke/asshole/like a pile of dung/ur head and anyother bad things..]it so totally suck..i was like shit how to do..i don't even noe a single question..HONEST..damm im sure to fail this test.
wellx.joan's birthday is coming..carnt wait fer that day to finally come..cos it marks the star of the hols!! yipee!if onli i felt like this everyday! so happy[i think.]then life wld be so not full of worries anymore! hehe:)

nothin really happened today..spent most of me time at home in front of the com..nobody wanted to go anywhere..jill wanted to go home and studhecons..weiRd..and shaun's dad was at home..[at least thats wad he said..]so we couldn't go over..then everyone else went home or elsewhere but i dono the reason.. and wad was left was me and cliffy..so we dragged oueselves to the day and night shop and started to buy stuff and i paid!once in a lifetime..not really.. sometimes i do pay meself..hehe:)
today was another super extremely giaganticly humunguously[not sure if i spelt i correctly..paiseh]

BORING!


nothin left to comment bout tody a.k.a the BORING day!

P.S: TONS OF GOLDEN LUCK TO THOSE THAT ARE HAVIN THEIR EXAMS WHILE IM ENJOYING MESELF!!BEST WISHES!! GD LUCK!

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Friday, May 07, 2004

the next day.. cliff and me went to jill the hse again.then later shaun came wif leon again..then later we invited tsz pui over..that was one of those days that was really really fun!! we laughed till we almost dropped..cliffy and shaun were actin like sissyss..castratin themselves..weirdo..then they actin like eunuchs..

ME:scene 2 act 1..ACTION!

SHAUN:[kicks the scissors up but in the end it dropped on the floor..] AHHH! again!

ME AND JILL:scene 2 take 2..ACTION![he does the sAME thing but it dropped again..]AHHHHHH!!! again!!!

ME AND JILL PLUS TSZ PUI:scene 2 take 3.. ACTION!!!

SHAUN:he does the same thing and it dropped again..

till the seventh take..

US:scene 2 take 7..ACTION!!

SHAUN:[finally he did it and walkes towards cliff..then he acts like a siao/perverted/siao saio person and then stops in front of cliff..then.does that hackin action..pretendin to cut off cliff's toot..]

CLIFFY:AHHHHHHHH!!!!!

then cliff does the same thing to shaun..in the end the both of them ended up as...GIRLS!!!! and they were like hittin each other the sissy way..very very funny!!! then tsz pui jill and me were there lauffin our heads off..too funny...

then shaun had a lot of actions.. he sure was a good actor..then when his sis called..he was like some cartoon like that..he jumped first then he ran off..then outside he run like so relax..weird..

oh ya.. i forgot somethin..in the morning..we were still in the day and night store..then i called shaun and i asked him..

SHAUN: eh..where are u now huh??

ME:we at the day and night.. the 24 hr shop.where are u now huh??

SHAUN:i not at home now lehx..

ME:then where are u??

SHAUN:i now at home..

now is he weird or wad..haha..funny guy.



the next day we all went to shaun's hse.. onli that serene didn't go..and of cos cliff was heart broken..we were kindda like walkin around his hse explorin for a while then he suddenly asked..

SHAUN:eh want to eat mac or not..i order the delivery..

of cos we all said yes..then we were lookin into the newspaper for the delivery number..jus when we needed it we cannot find it..then leon thught of a brillant idea..the internet.. so all of us went up and started to search for the singapore wan..then shaun ordered the food fer us..he was like..

SHAUN:can i haf 1 macchicken meal..no 2...nooo 3...nooooo 4..noooooooo 5..ya 5..

then later he remembered that he forgot to ask fer sauce..and wanted to call back but of cos.inpossible..the same person might not pick the phone up.so we all anythin lorx..but we had to wait fer half an hour fer the food to come..
which was very long cos everyone was starvin..

the durin that time we were in his room and he was playin some game.. and we were crappin there.
then the food finally came..shaun told us a really weird thing that happened to him when he was in p4..i didn't think that he would be do naughty.. haix.. naughty boy..then we were like..call tsz pui!! after we eat..we will clear all the food then ask him over..shaun's idea..but in the end.. he didn't even on his hp.. waste time onli..

then after lunch..we went up to his rm and cliff did the glow-in-the-dark watch thing..lame..and we did a gig..shaun put gel..clay..and mousse on cliff hair and do like some NERD like that.. i took a pic of him in my phone..shaun did it too... his was really funny ... a real nerd! but in the end he messed his hair up and started to bang his head on the cupboard.. too nerdy..haha.

well jill left early and i was the onli gal there..so weird..then the guys deceided that they WANTED ti play soccer..wow!! i loved that game..as if..but it was okay seeing them play..funny moves they had..and then we went up to use the msn and then leon pretended to be shaun..as in ues his acc and started a conversation wif mich..hint hint..and then he asked the ques.."do u like leon.." she said as a bro.. oh wellx.then shaun took over..haha.he startet by sayin that leon sux..which of cos he didn't mean..then he started to talk crap bout her..of cos with my help.. i was in the some class as her fer two yrs..and called her all sorts of names..fun hehe..and he also talked to serene pretendin to be cliff..and was like confusin her..."i am cliffthe friend julien the friend jill the neighbour tsz pui the neighbour...SHAUN".. lame ppl there.. mixin her up.. and he played soccer so violent wan.. fell on his butt and noe still hurtin.. poor thing.. who ask him..


then today also..at first we went to tampinese..fer lunch and planned to walk around..in the end we did..tryin to shake wei liang off..we all didn't like him..
in the end the guys[shaun leon and cliff] did it and escaped frm him..poor guy ..then i went to shaun's hse first..the onli girl again..[am i always sooo extra..] well jill would be comin over..not sure when though..

they started by playin soccer..then i was the auntie that helped them take the ball wif the net if it drops into the fish pond..weird job..but at least it was better than jus sittin there doing nothin..oh..and shaun cut his knee while saving the ball frm "drowing"..his knee scratched against the rock and it bleed really badly..but thanx to my plaster..haha..DONE!

the later they went up to play the game..ragnarok i think.. not sure if spell correctly or not..well and shaun was such a bully.. he was bullyin leon..sayin that u must get for me this dono wad holy... somethin..if not u don't go hooome..stay back for detention..and then he made leon do two push ups for every thing he killed..and in the end leon had to do 55..the last amount was five fer one u killed..and surprisingly..ha could do it non-stop..and still do three commando wan after that..and yesterday leon showed me his six-pec..weird..i was like fine so??? dono wad to say wad.

then finally jill came and we were like talkin crap..and the guys plAyed soccer again..and cliff jus had to throw the gate keys up to the second level outside the window thingy..and they couldn't open the gate..and when they play ball..that kick really hArd and poof! out goes the ball..and poor leon has to climb ou and then throw the ball back in..then climb in again..and then shaun would kick the vall so hard and then he would haf to climb out and throw the ball back in again.. and that continued for a real long time..

well i still was the auntie..and i of cos..keep have to take the ball frm te pond..them later we played murderer..the cards one..damm funny...shaun and cliff was like "we are fresh hot and juicy chickens.." that of cos meand that they are victims..and they always commited suicide..weird way of playin this game..even though it was suppose to be a silent game.. we were all laughin at each other..well that is all..


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YESSSSS!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!! i can finally get into the internet.am i happy or wad??i am happie! in case u carnt see or read.hehe.well loys of things happened these few days. real fun stuff..tell u if u read on.hehe..

well frm mon on..we've been going to jill's hse and then we were all crappin there.. very fun.on mon.. cliff, serene and me went to jill's hse first..[cliff was the onli guy.. so extra.]then we were really bored.. no fun.. but then jill started chattin wif shaun then he suddenly said that he wanted to come over..weiRd rite. so in one whole full wadever minute..he was there and he didn't noe wad a doorbell was and started to shout jill name ..hehe.
well he came with leon. and then we were crappin there.all sorts of rubbish.it first started wif shaun and leon tokin to themselves..he had a conversation wif jill and then he continued to talk and talk..in the end..he changed the nick..to "i love u melson"and then he saved the converstion and the next day he printed them ouy the next day.siao wan.and of cos jill was really angry at him..and so he had to surrender the paper to her and then she squashed it up and threw it at his head.hurt like hell.

the next day

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Saturday, May 01, 2004

help..i feel like a total asshole.never was like that in pri sch..changed soooo much. I MISS U PPL!! MARIANNE..CHRIS.JOAN..can we go out one day..

yesterday was like a shitty day..and i really mean it..jus lost a great pal..why the hack did i do that..i knew that i shouldn't have done anything to hurt anyone or told her anything..i sooooooooo regret it.

GOD PLS HELP ME..FORGIVE ME AT LEAST..I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE IT..I DERSERVE TO DIE..AT LEAST A HUNDRED TIMES..

damm jill can we chat through sms or msn or something..i wanna talk to someone..jus scold me or somethin..i need it.but wads done already done..nothin can change it anymore.

wad am i gonnA do on mon..i am such a gonner..who to sit wif..wad to do during recess..WAD TO DOOOOOO..

i suck okay..i feel like going out..don't wanna stay at home.cried yesterday..fustrated at my mom,dad,sis and myself..my bro too..i jus couldn't take it anymore..feel like killing meself..that is if i dared..im a total coward..i suck..in case u didn't noe that..

got nothin else to write except tHAT..hope things will be better soon..and we can get back together..i sooooo regret that..jus kill me.

consider getting lost